Published July 21, 2023, 7:20 a.m. by Monica Louis
Whether you are a successful artist, an unproven entity, or struggling to create while working a 9-5, there is a common thread amongst most creative types: a depression that is kept at bay by producing new works. art can serve an artist much in the same way any drug might. “self medicated” is a new film about art, artists, and their struggles to stay happy. The Antagonist Movement was formed by a group of unknown artists in 2000. Begun in bars and clubs of the Lower East Side, the movement promoted lesser-known works by up-and-coming talent. Over the last thirteen years the Antagonist Movement has grown and expanded from its base in New York to show in cities around the world, including Berlin, Lisbon, and Quito. This film documents the entire history of the Antagonist Movement and the artists involved, employing animation, stop-motion film techniques, interviews, and a killer soundtrack that spans the globe. From the street to the gallery and back again, “self medicated” reveals a new wave in art from the last American art movement.
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let's change me
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there are two sides of the art world
there's at least two sides there's the
pros those are the guys that are in
there signed by Gagosian and Mary Boone
and these huge names and they're sold at
Sotheby's and their work goes for
hundreds of thousands or in this low
millions or whatever you know there's
those guys and then there's the rest of
us the rest of us aren't making enough
on our art to survive as artists so what
do we do we get jobs you know we're not
on we're not on welfare we're working
people nobody gave us the silver spoon
and said hey you're an artist now you
are liberated from from everything real
all you have to do is what's in your
mind and create that's more of something
that we have to do is self medication
that's what the antagonist is therefore
we are the other guys and now we're
actually building and getting bigger and
bigger and our works getting better and
everything's kind of coalescing and the
more that we travel the more that we do
these shows and and meet all these
different connections all over the world
and the more of a force we become you
know we're never gonna be Jeff Koons I
think we were gonna take it as far as we
can so I know that you guys did a mural
downtown I overheard you guys talking
and you guys will said this is our first
I've never do it in Europe
well we found these these old drawings
girls from what were they like from like
the 50s and 60s they're like the dress
pattern you know you survived to like
make your kids clothes right
really para nice pants
I gotta go buy new pants on the fly no I
could I could take I can use my hand
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the antagonist Tsar kind of the school
in a bar every Thursday you go and
whether you are showing or you're not
showing you are critiquing and you are
active you're in a conversation and
you're embracing people and you meet so
many weirdos and so many people that
later down the line ten years down the
line they're your friends still it is
kind of like school in that way first
rule at the antagonist movement is you
do what you say you're gonna do
the second you break that rule you're
full of no one wants to work with
you anymore
and I think that that's really a big
lesson in life and if you say that
you're gonna have work at the show on
Thursday night and you don't show up
with work at eight o'clock done
blacklisted you're never showing there
again it was just like that so you
better be there eight o'clock with your
work to hang so your shows ready by 9:00
the second thing that we learned was
quick installation fixing problems
everything that went along with the
antagonist and cleaning up and being
respectful I had no idea about how much
respect you have to give to get a little
bit back but it really you do you got to
be clean you got to be punctual you got
to be on time you got to be respectful
these are lessons that that should be
taught in school and are not so nice to
say like I don't look at it as like a
school that I went to it to school I'm
still going to if I didn't have the
outlet like the antagonist movement I
would have been crazy I don't
even think I live in New York City if I
didn't have the antagonist movement I'm
kind of nomadic by nature I would have
moved on a long time ago now I found my
home in Brooklyn I can't leave but a lot
of that is the artist community that we
built in the family that I've kind of
created through my friends
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it's up to you but I think we'll do it
like a quick guitar overdubs that sound
good it's just to thicken the guitars up
and then we'll dive right into the
vocals and back
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since we met the antagonist movement
last year we found that we share a lot
of the same work ethic and their mission
statement something that we can really
get behind they really inspired us to do
a lot of things we've been doing more
shows we started our own collective
called stout City Texas as well as a
record label that helps independent
bands get noticed so we do a podcast
called the old man embittered girl
podcast or ome G podcast we had this
idea to make a zine branched off from
the podcast Tim does all the writing and
stuff work so I sit here after he gets
all the work together and do all the
layout a fanzine is it's an amateur made
magazine it can cover any kind of genre
like music art it's a labor of love
there's something about somebody putting
something and especially on printed
paper that to me is like a lost art if
you want to start a revolution
distribute some literature man put your
opinion out there and see what happens
back in the 1830s they had a cannon that
was stationed in Gonzales Texas the
whole town showed up with guns and the
cannon was posted up ready to fire and
they hoisted this flag they had a cannon
on it and it said come and take it
they're very interesting monster because
you have so much room to work with so
much room to play with you're not stuck
to you a certain format and with the
zine you have complete creative control
the style can vary I have seen some
scenes out there that literally look
like someone just got a whole bunch of
photos collage it together with some
glue and then took a typewriter and
typed it out we live in a small town
it's nothing like New York or a big city
and I grew up in an even smaller town
there life that we had in reality was so
mundane and when I discovered punk rock
when I was a kid it was my answer for
this shitty stale life here in this town
everything's blank everyone's trying to
make all their lawns pretty and great
and it's like something out of Edward
Scissorhands and as everything's trying
to be so prefabricated it's not nice it
sucks it's plain it's boring but out of
that cookie cutter fabric if you make
cookies and you keep punching that
mold down in there you're gonna
have all this excess crap that's
though over where the eggs is crap and I
love it I love being the excess crap
because that's the first thing one gets
eaten by the cook well I grew up in a
really really small town of about 2,000
people and this type of lifestyle is not
necessarily looked very highly upon and
I never really fit in anywhere and I
kind of humbled myself and read a lot
when I was younger I've I went through a
bad stage of depression my mom she was
very active in the church and there was
a guy there who gave bass lessons and I
had them playing for a while and so he
kind of took me under his wing and
taught me bass from there I met a crew
of people we kind of started our own
band at 16 and would save my life was
the music and the people that I met and
I finally found a place where I fit in
where I wasn't just you know I don't
know yeah it it was nice to feel like I
was a part of something like I was doing
something important and that kind of
transpired to you that art it it's kind
of become a driving force to keep me
going and to keep me from falling back
into the dark spots that so it's so easy
to find and that's pretty much all I can
say I was about to start crying
hey everybody that's Tim with the OMB G
podcast and in the studio with us today
is Ethan Minsker that I said that
correctly even yep all right awesome
with the antagonist movement and he's in
town for the Victoria Texas Film
Festival and we definitely we talked
with Rubio and Chris a little bit
earlier but I wanted to actually talk to
you a little bit more about it because I
know you are a founding member of the
antagonist art movement is that correct
yep and tell us a little bit about how
it started if you don't mind sure well
I'd like to say you know it's three of
us in a bar
Anders Olson who's a painter excellent
painter Sergio Vega you guys might know
him as a bass player for a band called
quicksand and also the Deftones
it sounds like a joke but a filmmaker
writer artist musician walk into a bar
walk into a bar but we all actually
worked in the bar together New York City
is a bunch of people trying to do
something creative there wasn't really a
lot of outlets for you to do anything
unless you were bringing in a lot of
money for the gallery we just wanted to
create a place where we could first off
show our own work and also the work of
our friends and then figuring there's
probably a larger community out there of
people who need a place to show and
around what year was that that was 2000
okay so it's been going on for quite a
quite some time now 13 years and over
the ups and downs that you guys have had
you guys have actually branched out even
more than a lot of things overseas
they're talking about world domination
yes I understand that we weren't really
setting out to get a bunch of ranches in
different countries or any of that thing
it's by the virtue of nature of our
events that we had an open call for
artists we started receiving artist
submissions from all over the world
having an artist come from Berlin having
an artist come from South America or
having people find out about us from our
projects then led us to other countries
when you see like a first-time artist
their first show finally getting
questions asked about themselves and
being able to talk about the art that's
got to be probably one of the best
feelings in the world and that's an
amazing thing because a lot of times all
you need is a chance and that chance can
lead to something more
there's some artists out there that
really have talent but they don't have
the ability to have a venue or get shown
and if you can just say to them here's a
chance do the best you can it might lead
to the next thing
briefly like the benefits of having
writers artists screen printers all in
the same group that it's the concept of
mixing and matching and we are open to
all types of art and by being open to
all types and all forms of art then you
can expand not just your knowledge but
what you do creatively
I see the antagonist movement as
starting really more like six months or
a year before it actually started
because it was just a conversation that
a lot of us were having especially I
remember me and Ethan having this on
Wednesday nights when we work together
there was an antagonist that worked in a
bar in the East Village
every night of the week basically was us
going around to different bars and
hanging out and getting drunk and making
t-shirts and making art and setting up
shows and from the first time we did an
event there was a ton of people there
there was way more people than were in
the bar the Thursday prior to that and
then when we did our first group show we
had a line out the door and down the
block on 7th Street and Avenue a I say
almost immediately I realized that it
was gonna be something bigger than just
you know five or six of us hanging out
in a bar talking so it started
growing immediately and it's just
continued to go ever since then that was
just in the East Village now we're you
know they have shows in Berlin and
Lisbon and Ecuador in a few months
Chihuahua Mexico City so I'm always
excited at how big it keeps getting and
what the next thing is that happens
you'll see
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there was a point where I didn't have to
make art I did it cuz it was fun and I
liked it and the switching point to
where it became something that I had to
do was me thinking about how I was
raised and the religion I was raised in
and whether or not I believed what I was
taught my whole life and I really I came
to a conclusion that I didn't so it's a
major thing that was probably around
like 25 or something and when I lost my
religion it was painful psychologically
emotionally on a lot of levels and art
is my way of finding my religion again
for me personally there's like only two
choices and one is doing lots of drugs
and the other is doing art instead of
doing dope I do art kids
when I was about six years old they
discovered I was dyslexic the severe
learning disability I had problems with
codes and symbols translation between
the two meaning reading and writing and
math were all things that were difficult
for me I excelled in comprehension
I could understand complex theories but
when it came to reading and writing my
skills were way behind the other kids my
age it is not easy growing up with a
learning disability and people don't
really understand what that means I
don't see things differently but I
learned early on there were ways to get
around that by having people reading
over what I write I was never going to
be like normal kids making art is a way
of capturing and controlling at least
one small element of my life since
writing and those things were taken away
from me doing fanzines and writing
novels became a very important goal for
me would the antagonist movement they
they provided me with the assistance and
help they support what I'm doing because
they have faith in the projects
themselves when it comes to my own
depression I don't think it's anything
unique the times that I haven't worked
on my art I felt cut off from the world
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I grew up in Washington DC in the 70s
and 80s moved to New York in 1988 and I
had a lot of friends that sir come to
the violence if I could just make one
piece of artwork that could live as a
memorial to myself or a marker on a
gravestone that I would be happy and
maybe that's part of the creative
process that I need to go through that
drives me to work on the next project
but the reality is I'll probably never
be happy with anything that I make I
think at some point every artist thinks
about their audience and who they're
making their work for and for me that's
always been one person and that is my
daughter
before she was even born when she was
only a concept by writing the books and
making the films and doing this artwork
was a way that I could have a personal
relationship with my daughter even if I
wasn't around
I think being an artist probably means
you're a little bit crazy
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can she come there she goes sweet steps
clusters of rounded corners
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yo estoy trabajando Kunis antagonistic
Milius it was just a low growl the
Swindall going to are gonna spray into
the the main art this place the
communica Sokka your pho swear on you
know los que me ayudara encontrar Abajo
ya know her solo they've Macedo the
wreckage endo platters and restaurants
you know involve chairman in Ostrava the
bull crowds coming artist estoy haciendo
puro Vega soon at least our legendary
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Valley the other odd pay yes in the
lumen taksasila this position is entosis
her cocido importante para para este
proceso como from artiste document estar
aqui no your men are you da mucho Kurata
Minka assume interesante intended
trabajan colectivo casting porque yo
vengo da Hannah you called me to come
colectivos secular antagonist asan
distintos NS a Punto
second awesome politico's se que siempre
se trata and le are de las casas
políticas to your consider una persona
we political person eres tan shall
respect away
so the nurses and dealer so many
uncommon group apoyo muy importante key
and you know special men to cook a toast
and individually style a hint a star
simply well in Sandin or tsuyoi in the
South he just won't come grupo de amigos
que c'est un exist in Quentin trabajo
you can say apollyon special mental
kumar testosterone scale Casillas
importante por otro lado creo que el
Waianae quod vos said bueno para que in
quaint remote transformers the trabajan
colectivo callus removal your super
angels they know it was not experiential
in America
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creo que la primera vez recently there
are a myriad of a condo in the a Quattro
an Uzi possess or your bosses so it
caused us in America most are enemy
control him from a failure mid-may
bothered me he ultimately workup and
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classes classes classes a trip idea
una forma in a careless place you saw a
totally maintain a paradise out there or
in imagine not like Lucas until oh okay
that person came as me help Anakin
deliver yeah so far so funny you took
the info but monotonous those annuals we
start which was the tourists in familiar
with Roku palace okay tell me another
menial at all miss Polly dad hasta que
this female don't do psychiatric a dijo
que algo muy interesante typical storage
is considered a low drag a lo que la
gente not rescued to rather for the
outside Paris when officio provincial
comunidad y esto que me dio later the
explorar me the singing
como ant in the end o el el miedo until
the end of a mirror Alan Alan to Suzie
O'Keefe Nicosia retarding you serious a
SS see sentimiento a control hablo
there's a Bluebird Canyon service
as a love serve our real Mentalist
person to season live o hadouken email
you observe our elemental as custodian
all of the tragedy otra vez entrap
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massive array siento que esto es endo lo
que tengo que hacer para una subida
entosis creo que el arte man ha sido la
comida y special mental documents
Ignacio command of allah sobre poner may
reveal signior revealed from ganas de
descubrir el Mysterio bellavita yeah
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our society is filled with branding you
can't really go anywhere especially in
New York City without having someone's
brand being forced upon you to deny that
would be a waste of effort you as an
artist should get out there and push
your work force it upon people make them
realize who you are the people that are
offended by that you probably do not
want as your audience anyway you're
looking for like-minded individuals and
the people that will respond to that the
people that take the time to get to know
your work those are the people that you
want to build up a longer relationship
with everybody else is null and void
they do not matter they do not fit into
the equation of what you are doing
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clothes and stop them with hey
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the antagonist movement for me was a
complete lifeline when I moved to New
York I moved in 2004 and even though I
was born here I didn't have a lot of
friends per se but I did have an old
friend from high school named Ethan
Minsker and when I moved to the city I
instantly had a support network
community of people reason to make art
and even a job which is something that
we do in the antagonist movement is
we'll try to help each other get work so
it's more than just art shows it's very
supportive community which helps us in
every part of our lives so much to the
bar owners chagrin Ethan hired me under
their noses and so I started working
Thursday nights in the East Village
helping set up the art for our art shows
in our bar night which is one of the
ways we used to fund projects in the
antagonist movement is we got a small
percentage of a night at a bar and it
was an incredible tenure even though it
was about seven years when I was trying
to get art shows like I still AM I would
always have some relatives say well why
don't you just take your stuff into a
gallery and show them be aggressive if
this is what you really want to do you
should try this well that's not how it
works no one walks into a gallery and
gets a show in New York the commercial
gallery system is locked it's locked and
unless you went to the right schools or
your parents or famous art collectors
you are not gonna be able to cold-call a
gallery I still don't know how to do it
eight years on we were instrumental in
giving a lot of people their first shows
in New York and while it wasn't a show
in a commercial gallery in Chelsea or
Soho or 57th Street for a lot of people
it meant just as much I oftentimes had
people say this is my first show in New
York and I just moved here I can't
believe it so it was incredibly
rewarding in that sense and we also got
a lot of really cool things done it gave
people a boost
the bar night was amazing because a lot
of the people that were volunteering
helping out setting up the shows showed
up every week like it or not sick or
tired cold or raining or whatever and it
was a great motivator as well as a great
reason for us all to get together every
week since we've lost that I don't know
how we're gonna keep it going as focused
and concentrated as we have in the past
when I was an adolescent I had a very
traumatic year and I turned to music and
art as a way of coping with it you know
even in school counseling or church no
one talks about that sort of thing the
dark things depression and mental
illness and alcoholism I mean
emotionally I think I just wanted to
escape but as a mode of life art is an
incredible edifying practice so the way
of looking that art provides me enhances
being alive and I don't see it as a
therapy for another way of living what I
found was a community of people who
didn't just take things for granted or
take things for their surface value
didn't accept what corporate culture was
telling them or forcing them to buy you
know I've never really looked back there
is no other way of living for me at this
point
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Sunday
like barks either my friend brain reader
writer Richard hello this story is
actually edited from a larger story and
it's probably one of the most
embarrassing moments in my life I hope
you enjoy it I did it's the summer of
1980 the second summer since relocating
to Florida from Oakland I'm 16 and the
70s are over the White House has an
actor in it and I hope this term will be
as ineffective as his acting career 11
years ago in 2002 the antagonist
movement put together Fahrenheit which
is an open mic reading series presented
at black and white bar from 8:00 to
10:00 every Sunday night and it's been
ongoing Sunday night ritual at black and
white it was weekly and it's now monthly
we used to have themes we actually when
it first started it was a contest people
voted on who was the best writer that
that particular night it was like a
silent vote we've had every type of
writer in there we've had comics we've
had poets we didn't encourage poetry at
first we actually threatened to throw
things at poets but eventually they
worked their way in it was mostly short
stories it was a challenge for people to
get up there and write a story about
something mostly personal in their lives
you know because we draw on our own
experiences from what we've lived and my
first experiences doing that was
difficult because I was in standing in
front of a group of peers essentially in
a way you know sounds cheesy but naked
you know exposing myself and and and the
thing about reading at a mic as much as
the audience gets something out of the
actual reading it's hearing yourself and
hearing your words and hearing yourself
deliver those words to an audience I
mean the first few times I walked up to
the mic you can hear the paper shake and
my
for fun because I was so nervous about
what I was reading about I mean it's all
just my past it's nonfiction that might
be embellished it's funny to find how
you cover your own pain in your writing
like when you get too close to the fire
how you move away from it I went through
a certain phase of my life where I was
getting high and I was fresh out of a
rehab and I had a lot of stories in my
head but a lot of them were very
personal and it wasn't it wasn't the
easiest thing to sit down and write
about I eventually did and I remember
the first story I ever wrote was about a
friend of mine who was somebody I lived
with who wound up getting killed and me
having to deal with the cops and
identifying him and she looks like a
girl Varga misplaced and wanted back or
maybe she was designed by Hugh Hefner in
some secret bunny lab she was wearing
tight black jeans with pumps and two
thin belts slung low on her hips the
tube tops she wore was buckling under
the strain and as she got closer I could
see a pin on her book bag the clash this
has got to be a self-fulfilling
hallucination no high school girl looked
like her maybe she was 22 maybe she was
left back for years I have to talk to
her please God let her have been raised
fatherless in Catholic the sexual
ramifications could be staggering
creating something within that life in
that world you live in it takes you away
from it essentially and it also shows
you how to look at it in a different
light which is exactly what writings
done for me I see things in a different
light now I hear the sound of heels
getting closer Andy's face looks like
that of a dog with its head out the
window going for a joyride I turn and
it's her wearing a dress she poured
herself into and fishnets like an
electric fence to the promised land she
hands me a pill here have one and with a
full belly of cheap wine I swallow
without taking my eyes off of her are
you going in I asked maybe let's go for
a walk I feel a wave crash over me what
was that pill a quaalude I shut my car
door can you undo this yeah yeah still
seated with the steam and the sweat
coating the wind
my car I look up and vomit all over both
of us all the cheap wine and quaalude
residue that filled my gut we washed up
in the surf fell asleep in the car we
saw each other a few more times and then
she was gone the smell of tickle pink
lasted longer Thanks
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from the start the antagonist movement
has tried to avoid the political issues
in 2000 everybody was pushing to the
left or to the right and now it's even
worse I think if you want to have a
group that's inclusive you have to leave
politics to the side we are an art group
our focus is on art not the politics of
it each individual artist can express
their own politics through their
individual art but the overreaching
theme of the group should be free of
politics if you took a survey of the
artists we work with I would say we are
overwhelmingly liberal but at the same
time we don't want to discourage the
conservative artists out there from
being involved with us if you believe
yourself to be a free thinker then you
shouldn't be intimidated by the views of
somebody else and I do think there is a
political aspect to what we do but that
resides in the economics of art I
appreciate the art market in New York
City it has its points and it has its
values but what it can't do is provide a
space for unproven and unknown artists
the antagonist movement exists in that
space between obscurity and the
commercial art world most of us work on
these projects put our own money into
these projects we lose money everybody
in our group would love to make an
income off of their art when we're
creating work we worry about the
integrity not the buyer and I think
that's the difference between making
something that's commercial and
non-commercial when it comes to art if
you leave room for those unheard voices
you may discover something that is truly
unique and truly amazing something that
will inspire us all
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a first off let me set the stage
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I'm gonna find a member
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she made
I became involved with the antagonist
movement in 2009 and started doing
curating shows and participating shows
in 2010 and as the year had progressed
ultimately I was asked to be part of the
next project which was called the dolls
of Lisbon taking place in Lisbon
Portugal after working there for 10 days
and having a life-changing experience
came back and the group offered me the
opportunity to go back to school and why
you a Heyman Center for philanthropy and
fundraising in order to form our other
organisations citizens for the Arts
which is completely separate from the
group but has the same mission statement
in order to help foster and develop
other artists in areas where they be a
little lesser-known when people say
you're not political enough I don't even
know what that means I don't agree with
that statement whatsoever and if that's
the case if you want to be political go
to some other group this group likes to
support people they like to have
communities grow they like to work with
other artists I mean at least have
something we know you have a common goal
and you're working towards the same
thing I don't think it needs to be all
about politics and it's important to
know that there is someone out there who
is willing to show your work investigate
your work and really not not be afraid
to support what you're doing so it's
important for artists to know that they
don't have to work alone there's other
outlets for them to work with other
people who do care about what they do so
when I was a little girl my parents had
a pretty rough breakup you know I was
really young I don't really remember
much of it was six years old but I do
remember the shitty things that happen
and I do remember not seeing my mom
because she had to work and we bounced
around with different relatives and it
sucked
man my dad he did some pretty cruel
things to separate the family and I did
it
some things I just can't forgive him
before I missed out on a lot of my
childhood I missed out of my mom sorry I
missed out on a lot of things where I
could have had a family and not and
understand a little bit better I don't I
feel like I don't have one still with
the exception of the group but um you
know he kind of just left us he didn't
care you know my brother was sick my mom
was sick so you're leaving three people
kind of to fend for themselves it's
really hard to talk about him because he
he still is very a selfish person he
doesn't care
I felt for a while I dropped off I felt
like I was just doing it to please other
people but really it was to validate
myself the reason why I still do art now
is I can't stop it's compulsive if I
stop by pace I don't know what to do
with myself all these things that I
don't want to think about come up it
almost the point where it's dwelling on
them and I don't I don't want to dwell
on anything I want to keep positivity
going this type of artwork that I do it
all has to do with the conversations
that you have with other people the
dialogue it all comes to a head in your
piece and in my pieces if you look at
them
part of its anger regret wishing that
things were different
an emotional lady and I express it
through my artwork the group is
definitely a huge part of my life in a
city of 8 million people
wherever you go there's always a friend
it's something that's warm and inviting
and we all have this common this common
understanding we may not be held
together by blood but we are held
together by the same core set of beliefs
and what we want to do and what we want
to accomplish and to me that's a family
someone who will always support you be
honest with you and tell you what's what
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I'd like to also say this is the fanzine
release party that Fantine comes out
maybe quarterly whenever we get around
to it we've been doing that fanzine
since 1988 so we're looking for stories
for that there's a contact in there we
can give you the info it's a 500 words
or less it also comes with a visual
artist that we're looking for our first
reader is gonna be Richard Allen I'm
going to read a story that Ethan put out
one of his fanzines that that's the
reason I chose this one I know the piss
eyed holding it is not going to
use it in the confines of this Bowery
flophouse but the rock cocaine making
his handshake and the faultiness of the
simple mechanism does have me
tingling I grew up in in Buffalo New
York in a Republican conservative Jewish
home my parents were upper-middle class
my dad was a World War two vet but
mostly I always thought of my dad as a
grumpy old Jew he had this temper that
was just out of control and he would
just lose his temper and I found his
temper frightening yet amusing a lot
like the opening of Stanley Kubrick's
Full Metal Jacket at the age of 12 I got
sent up from the dinner table for
misbehaving and my dad followed me up
into my bedroom where I had a little
microphone and a tape recorder and my AM
radio setup where I would record songs
off the radio so at 12 years old as I
was getting yelled at by my dad I hit
record on my microphone and I taped my
dad for the first time I continued
taping my parents until I was about 28
years old most of other chording were
done in the 1980s on a boom box which
had built-in microphones like the one
you see here my dad was a lot older than
me so he did not know that so
this first tape I'm gonna play for you
comes from my sophomore year in college
and this is the end of my winter break
I'm home with my family and I was 19
years old and I did what all 19 year
olds do it at 19 on a break I went out
with my friends every night we saw the
midnight movies we saw the wall in Rocky
Horror we saw bands we got drunk we got
stoned and I would come home at 4:30 or
5:00 in the morning that was just what I
did every night for four weeks this is
the last night of my winter break I met
my parents house I'm about to go to the
Greyhound station and my dad wanted to
have a talk with me about my last four
weeks among other things so January 1985
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there you go that's my dad I'll bring it
back in a few minutes thank you so
there's this book in another book I did
here at the library if anyone's a member
please pick it up and read it and let
people know this is a book about the DC
punk rock scene I was a teenager when
all of this happened so each chapter
starts with a song this chapter is the
circle the name of the
band is Swizz the song is won't breathe
for you and then I'll go right into the
story when your teeth fall from your
face I'll be there to catch them and
with your smile in my fist I'll do all
your smiling DuPont circles where all
the punks hang out said Lars you never
been there that's the end of that
chapter
good horrible that is so so you know
this is the first time I've ever read
out in public this is the first time no
I mean this is the first time I've ever
read in public
anywhere I'm like dyslexic I hate
reading in front of people so I can see
please
flying here bombs crashing and you cars
coming and your guns blasting they don't
affect me no more cuz I'm on the wrong
side crash
I got involved with the antagonist
movement it was I believe it was 2003 I
was DJing at this East Village bar
called Niagara I was playing rock and
roll there on on Monday nights and there
was a bartender there a bald guy and you
know we didn't really talk much my first
couple of weeks deejaying he's like you
know we have this thing called the
antagonist movement do these fanzines
you know writers stories here have one I
said okay thanks a lot and I felt
obligated that somebody gave me
something to read that I should actually
open it up and read it and the next week
I was back at the bar deejaying and I
said hey I read your fanzine man I
really enjoyed us it's really good stuff
so I go you should check it out we have
a bunch of stuff we have an art show we
have a writer's night what's the writers
night so know people write five-minute
stories and tell their stories hello
that's cool some time passed could I
come to the writers night and play a
tape of my parents and Ethan said that's
a great idea
you know we break the rules why don't
you come and do that I showed up with a
boombox and a tape of my dad and I going
at it and the crowd laughed and they
roared they thought it was hysterical
and I continued to play tapes of my
parents and after sitting there and
listening to people read their poems and
tell their stories I said well this
stuff's not that good I can write a
story I can write a story better than
what I'm hearing in this room and I
began to write after a couple years of
doing this weekly Sunday night thing I
had accumulated a lot of stories
Ethan Minsker said why don't we put a
little chat book together for you will
have some illustrators and some
animators and give me some photographs
when we'll have a book out believe it or
not in 2005 I didn't have a computer so
I would come to Ethan's house once a
week and sit there and I would type up
my stories because all of my stories
were done on paper with a pen we put out
my book it's called somewhere between a
punch and a handshake I believe it came
out in 2005 after years I've developed a
one-man show based around my stories and
the tapes of my parents it's a one-man
show with a slide show thanks to Ethan
and thanks to the antagonist movement
for giving me an opportunity it's
something I never thought of doing I
always wanted to perform
and entertain people but I never knew
what the platform for that would be and
the writers night the Farenheit got me
started
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I'll be on the road this is a magazine
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DVD Time magazine
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I first heard of the antagonist movement
through the dolls of Lisbon movie then
one of the members from the collective I
work with central dogma went to New York
and met some of the guys from the
antagonist through that connection I got
introduced to the motto sign so I sent a
mark work to to the family issue and it
got published - so then I traveled to
New York to meet the antagonist so we
can make a connection to work together
so they can come down to Ecuador to
participate at the street art festival
that we're on in Battle City which is a
little town in Ecuador at the beginning
I felt identified with the antagonist
movements and we have something similar
in Accra you know a bunch of artists in
different areas who work together what
really struck me about antagonist was
the relation they have between each
other and the community like you can put
together this shows for such a long time
and be so strong and constant about your
work you know how working in group it's
really hard and especially between
artists when you know the egos start to
compete but I find that the antagonist
movement is really open and friendly and
loving so I guess that's why it works so
well because every member gets accepted
as a family there's no such thing as
competition between artists I grew up in
a real small town a small city so all
the people at the time were really crazy
at the beginning I felt like I was the
only
same person in the whole town I
discovered my creative self and that
kind of saved my life because I was
drowning in depression and going crazy
for not fitting in when I started doing
our work at the beginning it was for
myself and I was so ashamed and shy to
show it who anybody come back from
school and just do my artwork and the
only person that knew I was painting was
my mom and she was really supportive and
she was like you should show it
somewhere like no way this will never
see the light ever when I was around 13
I think I just reached a point of
frustration and got really depressed
because I just felt I didn't fit in
anywhere and you know my city is like
three three three hundred thousand
people so it's a really small place to
grow up it and everybody is like you
know robots they all look alike they all
listen to the same music they all do the
same stuff and when you start to feel
different and you cannot you know
realize you know communicate as a normal
person with other people it just reached
a point where I stopped trying to fit in
I was like okay I'm a weirdo I'm a freak
and I'm going to accept this but you
know at that age you need friends you
need the social life you need to be
accepted so I decided I didn't want to
eat anymore or go to school
anymore I will just lie him in bed and
my mom would be like you need to go to
school and be like no way I'm not going
to that school and my mom will come and
she will dress me like literally take
out my pajamas and she will put the
clothes on me and be like okay stand up
you are going to school I was like
walking ghost trying all the time to be
low profile I started making art I
painted alone and and then when I was
like 21 or so I got this boyfriend that
I show some of the pieces and I used to
make pieces like this big really really
little and he was really respective like
you know you should do them bigger but
he never even saw them on detail or and
came back home and I was like really
frustrated like yeah I'm going to make
it bigger so I started making them a
little bigger and they have figured out
need them to be more bigger so when I
was shopping for a big canvas I was like
this is not picking up I'm going to
paint it on a wall outside that's when I
started researching for street artists
that could teach me something and then I
found this guy at my college and I went
to him and be like hey I want to paint
in a world they don't know a thing and
he was like you know what just go ahead
and paint it when I did that that's when
the thrill begin I just felt this
emotion that painting on the street
makes me feel it like when you paint
alone in your studio it's quiet and
you're by yourself but then when you are
out in the open and everybody's looking
at what you're doing specially if you're
a little shy about it like me like
electrifies my whole self getting people
to watch it and comment on it sounds and
street noise and the kids passing by and
being like hey look at this little girl
painting this little and you know how
the kids are always so interested in art
it's crazy so
fell in love with street art and that's
my thing I paint on walls and if ever
get took out of me I I guess I will go
back to be a crazy girl like at the
beginning when I didn't do that
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Ramu esto mi hermano Caballero casa el
abogado me amigo en el colegio de Lomo
esto los chicos la banda maha DSO me
gusta la pasilla de como que tu puedes
hacer la is until take on el derecho de
creer NT de que puedas express art de
que tu voz también es importante como
que tenga Manav and afiyah me para super
chair que piensa derecho de que la gente
puede Smoochum ek - la puerta de otra
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independientes CI malasiya
he'll okay pretend ellis es como una
plataforma multi-discipline area and on
the way uncle was a compare here
Barrios people at least Eskimo dicen
odorous evil Ceratosaurus and this has
plastic hose do you contest that to
Edoras graffiti rose street and sells
musicals or hunting clothes okay nothing
an awkward canary it's a tree become
folk express are separated means
publication SQL commands are enjoined on
a photocopier he the numerous taste and
trendline print it has been a recurrent
random printer so me say sang aguado
simply come
additionally meal nominalist a mucho
pinta gusta title bastante las Paredes
porque como intentar leave it as las
Paredes
the totem I must be super pero el
espacio grease entonces yo scribble
attainment significa as the two mismo
que in Spanish again English this is
clearly do it yourself
he says click on that dress DIY and toss
your screwball esto porque me you know I
may be spent and happens okay look up
what I said todos juntos as Milton como
una manera intent ala him to provoke a
reaction intentando okay your plans
really sultan en sus propios productos
scene sec at the Cal intermediary Oso
see mrs. a conclusive SEP acero no las
cosas por que mas que super chewy cat
Osama cougar yeah intentar aprender
haciendo cosas de nuevas entonces cuando
yo commence any process or me proyecto
antistick oh oh my project Oeste de
pintura de comenzar interocitor ma yo
como hacer como con cosas que todos para
hacer
no no no let's terminate Cataldo donello
mucho dinero
I mean make a video conocido stands in
us cuando Mila regalado porque lo que
más importante Fundy la production
graphic estaba mess no conseguir el
dinero por el más que el alkar say
economic o de ganancia con oficina es
muy limitada entonces que la motivation
no a day I become imagine como que la
gente puede general tono me attractive
cos antistick our cool to rallies que le
permit unless a real Peduto seen an era
un intermedia o cinisi a tener una
dependency a detectable director con
cualquier
Yoshio economica institution Oh medio
the production enters ok pants in a
cupola contrast of cost personnel
present super importante Desiree ah
fanciness Uriah's publication
independientes pork además
rom paint a - tuturro the day pollution
or the dependency i departed the product
or eat a part l consumidor
ask yourself
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I got involved with the antagonist art
movement the first time when I saw their
film dolls of Lisbon it was submission
for fluid New Media Lab dystopia
exhibition we start playing it and all
the sudden I start seeing all these
artists that are from New York others
from Europe and a few from Ecuador even
like Latin America and I recognize some
of the characters but they were all
doing like these great pieces of work in
the street art after that I had like a
special connection with the film because
I had that experience that was a thrill
the second time I saw it we started
getting more familiar with the
characters at the point of presenting it
at the Queens Museum of Art during the
festival Ethan showed up I got to meet
ed and some other of the folks
personally and it was a really exciting
moment the antagonist really had their
their strategy together on how to
promote themselves I started to get even
more connected with the antagonists so I
was invited to planning meetings the
question was how and what can we do to
get to equal er which is the country
where I'm from the idea started to also
evolve into something that made sense
locally as well as it made sense for the
group eventually we all went to work
with the collective I have in a color
which is Dogma central and I was so
surprised to see that two collectives
had like similar projects similar lines
of work being involved with the
antagonist I was encouraged to be a
curator but through the group that I was
being pushed to kind of like do some
more profound writing to a little bit of
more research on other things that are
beyond what it's being presented to me
so I'm aware of the bigger picture of
the contemporary arts personally for me
being involved in the arts it is a way
to feel better about myself but I can't
do it on my own I feel insecure so I
need to be in a social environment to
make art I started to facilitate their
ideas and I noticed that I had a talent
for production I was serving my purpose
I felt sense of belonging before that I
feel like disconnected of society or
being minimized as somebody who wasn't
doing anything important before that I
was just a consumer but now I was a
participant first met the antagonist in
2007 year it was an optimum we met them
in Berlin to make their art show there
and during the film this is Berlin not
New York in Berlin and before I didn't
even know them and I have no idea what
the people are doing how we met them was
not the normal way you meet people
because a friend of us knew somebody who
was in New York she kept in touch with
the antagonist in Berlin we had a studio
she went by the studio one Sunday
afternoon and she came in and said oh I
know some people from New York they want
to come to Berlin and want to meet some
local artists doing some collaboration
at first I was a little bit surprised
because this doesn't happen that much
the thing is the contact never stopped
we met other people involved with the
antagonist they came to Berlin working
together with the antagonist in flu
us not only in an artistic way also it
influenced in the way we are doing the
projects now we did something comparable
or similar bringing artists together
from from other countries the good thing
is working together with the antagonists
you are in this group you know all these
people you can collaborate with them but
on the other side you have also time to
focus on your personal work I think
there's a really good balance between
these two sides
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for me personally doing artist somewhere
necessary because it's a way to deal
with myself with my thoughts when I'm in
a bad mood it's a good thing to go in
like very deep in this bad mood and to
like to swim a little bit in this bad
mood and then there's a point and it
makes like click and you say ok now it's
finished and I'm done with that and then
it's better
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I started making art on my own I guess
as a child the older I got the more I
became was more of a lifestyle than a
hobby there's something a carnal a need
that only can be filled with with art
making I once had a conversation with
Richard Hamilton he told me the only
thing better than heroin was art I kind
of feel that way too it fills this void
that I never found in in religion I
never found it in relationships or in
any other type of work I went for the
lifestyle if I neglect the studio for a
few months and go into like a dark place
with my head
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I have a few childhood memories of art I
was born in them in the Mission District
in San Francisco and it's covered with
murals this meals everywhere beautiful
beautiful great great works by Chicano
artists and the 70s and 80s Chicano art
movement was really alive in the mission
around the age of 12 maybe 11 its living
with my dad for the summer I didn't have
anywhere to go and I didn't have any
friends in the mission I didn't really
know anyone she stayed with my mom
during the year in Colorado so my dad
signed me up for a silk-screening class
in the mission cultural center and I met
this guy Mike Roman Tommy had a
silkscreen make my own t-shirts and
skateboards Tommy had a stencil this
became one of my bigger passions one of
my real one of the things I really like
to do then when I got back to school the
next year I had noticed there was
silkscreening stuff in the school and I
asked my my art teacher who hated me if
I could have used the silk-screening
stuff if I could make t-shirts she said
I wasn't experienced enough to be using
silks creams kind of put me off to art
but I was still doing it on my own I
actually made my own self screaming
studio in my house
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around 14 my uncle Bob took me to a
Keith Haring exhibition and it blew my
mind and I remember the most powerful
piece was in the final room there were
four pieces that were unfinished they
were and just finished in the corners
but not finished all the way because he
died before he could finish them and I
remember thinking that those were the
most important pieces in the show but
they actually showed how vulnerable he
could be and how vulnerable life is and
then after that I think I just really
wanted to be an artist no despite what
anyone said I had to be an artist thank
you
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simple Buddhist cafe I'll piss off
pallulah not just a back end oh so a lot
of our artwork is somewhat related to
punk rock or that sort of New York City
vibe to it
we call it Brad art or punk art it
really encompasses all styles of art we
try to design our group to work like a
laboratory so that we can develop and
progress and maybe change art in some
way and even if we haven't been
successful at that yet our system allows
room for that try things that are not
necessarily have an economic benefit
kept that short pretty so I say that I'm
in the Academy because of that system
we've been allowed to not only show
street art without being a you know
bothered we show in the galleries in the
Lower East Side we show in the Chelsea
galleries we also show in the museum's
so from doing this we have
from tiny little thing into a larger
organization this workshop is based on
sign painting typography using quit
making methods it's called right see
talk some of you may be familiar with
typography some of you may not you see
it everywhere so you can't help but be
familiar with it these letter forms and
all the symbolism that you see it's been
used for thousands upon thousands of
years it's how we communicate with one
another whether you speak the same
language or not
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the combination of having artists
photographers and writers working
together is the birthplace of the
antagonist art movement as it is today
those are they stay there they Nina
photographers at these discrete bodies
and you sort of the white is located and
now today everything is based in
technology so if you were writing a blog
the only way you access that blog is you
have to actively search that out doesn't
know Anika 4matic to poison Colossus and
we find the value of doing a fanzine
today is that we can physically hand
that to somebody and then they can pass
it off to somebody else I can leave it
in random locations like record stores
coffee shops bars on the back of toilet
seats ATM machines on the seat of a
train and we reach a much larger
audience by having people randomly come
across it or pick it up those in the
center those fancy desk a nice kit to
necessary emitted whose gas you as an
artist are left to wait to see if a
gallery or somebody else will accept
your work and permission from somebody
else
to actually get a show with doing a
fanzine you can put all of your work as
a compact gallery and hand that and put
it anywhere you want so it really takes
the power away from the middleman that
allows your art to be seen it used to be
that fanzines were unrecognized you'd
have to give them out for free and
nobody respected them but what I find is
the most powerful things of a fanzine is
that it can take someone who is
voiceless gives them a powerful voice
más importante responds in C while they
say Risha es que estamos hablando key
como in
in photos Nevada spray so I'm just gonna
make a fanzine real quick here this is
not my suit
but for this I wanted people to get used
to the traditional style of fanzines
which is paper glue scissors and display
those tears plain vanilla taste so it's
just muy importante porque oasis in
escape just enough computadora you
notice how a koala squad chapter roof
mounting system watch the midnight zoom
creo que el movimiento de gonna stop our
amigo podría dress Mira como Brotherhood
or hermandad hermandad my granny Amanda
special
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it was a kick more fun since the total
mundo que plus a collection and oak on
the collaboration differente Sammy goes
eat ambien come contact us at Eliza
correspondence he Carters and there's a
mil novecientos noventa Mizzou menos
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when will el el proyecto piezocone a
collection personal can displace que
hicimos Ensenada la gente que haces
purpose publication escuela alto public
arts doses para para enseñar a la gente
lo que nós vivemos una serie de Tijeras
en las cuales a nosotros queremos FAL
acetylase lo que pasa pasa famous
difícil de conseguir que la para toda
photo copia
para nosotros cuando lo gramo ser un
fanciness como un acto in initiation
para un futuro alchemists ax de las
letras own future Alchemist telegraphic
incentive hemos hecho de Jerez Caminos
poor concentration muchos Nino's a los
resultados de sus Tijeras imposes como
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my parents got divorced when I was seven
my mother moved to the other side of the
city me my sister were shuttled back and
forth half the week with my father and
half the week with my mother the days I
was at my father's he'd picked me up
from school and I would sit at his
office till eight or nine o'clock at
night waiting for him to get off he put
me in the conference room with a long
table in about a dozen chairs I'd
watched the TV for an hour or maybe two
then I would move to the pencils and
paper and staplers I'd put together
little books and make copies on the copy
machine giving them out to friends at
school it was a way to escape I felt
like I was outside of the office outside
of school doing something bigger than
myself
I discovered fanzines and I started my
own first it was about music and then
slowly it moved into arts it's where I
first learned to work with writers
artists photographers learning what
personalities work best together I was
an editor a publisher
somebody who was doing something
something that the community also
embraced make it bigger larger stronger
with a farther reach but a fanzine can
only take you so far
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we want to build bridges to other
cultures in small communities of artists
and we believe that by doing so not only
helps us understand more about art in
general it makes us understand the world
we live in a little bit better there's a
lot of very talented artists out there
but unfortunately that's not enough to
make it anymore you have to be bigger
than the individual I'd not only push my
own work I push our groups work together
and that might make the difference in
the end we all want to succeed the
antagonist movement is something that's
it's a selfish act that benefits the
community because we each want to help
ourselves out and in turn that helps out
everybody else
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tell me what you're thinking balls it
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tell me what you're thinking of
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