REACH - Award Winning Short Film - 2019 | Mental Health Awareness | English Narration

[Voice:] Life ! They say its a gift, an opportunity.

[Voice:] I only see it as a curse, a dark pathway with no exit gate.

[Voice:] I want to quit this game called life.

[Voice:] I have the flu, not the kind you can see that makes you jump between every sneeze.

[Voice:] But its there and it weighs me down everyday.

[Voice:] Hi - I am Rachika!

[Voice:] I feel drowned with tiredness.. yet I can’t sleep

[Voice:] I struggle through the night, and wake up with no feeling or emotion,

[Voice:] the energy i once had already drained

[Sound of the metro train]

[Voice:] I go to work and put on my best face

[Voice:] I work so hard just to stay in the same place

hey.. good morning guys! Good morning...

I hope, reports will be completed today

Yes, i am planning to finish it by today 4.. hmm 4:30

You need to understand this Rachika. I cant afford time validating your reports

and i dont want to see any errors this time.

If you have any doubts, clarify it right away.

I will..

As i have a meeting, i wont be available for next 4 hours

okay

[Vikram:] okay.. [Rachika:] okay

and one more thing. I hope you are ready for the presentation today

[Rachika:] Yes.. [Vikram:] ok.. Good..

Are you sure it will be completed by today

[Voice:] He scares me, my manager

[Voice:] Actually, its not him. He is a good guy.

[Voice:] Its me, who is always messing up.

[Voice:] Time just flies. Or does it?

[Voice:] My thoughts consume me..

[Voice:] I cannot anything done. I can't focus...I am useless...

[Voice:] I feel like throwing up. I need to calm down

[Voice:] I need to breathe.

[Voice:] I am miserble. Ok, so, I am useless

[Voice:] So what? I am not going to worry anymore.

[Voice:] Everyone will mock me.. Again.. I will fail.. yet again!

do you want to take a coffee break

[Voice:] They say the more you laugh, the more you live...

[Voice:] is it bad that I don’t even feel alive

So guys.. this is the report of your work what you have done for the last 2 months

So are you happy with this report?

even the management is not happy with the report

We were suppose ... [fades..]

[Voice:] I am confident.. I am brave.. I am who I want to be.

Have to completed within this month...

Rachika

are you with me?... Yes

Okay.. I hope you are ready with the presentation..

ok.. then please

So I talk about the marketing mix modeling today

and.. hmm.. first I will give some introduction about it and then slowely..

and.. hm.m.. sorry... sorry sir..

[Voice:] Lies ... All lies...lies I tell myself to stop the racing thoughts in my head

[Voice:] Start... What are you all thinking?

[Voice:] Stop...

[Voice:] You’re nothing. You’re worthless. You will never be who you want to be.

[Voice:] Run away, go hide, no one will care.

[Voice:] I freeze... I see them stare, I know they’re laughing..

[Voice:] but I can’t hear them. I can’t hear anything,

[Voice:] I can’t feel anything. Make it stop.

[Voice:] Great. He noticed. What do I say?

[Voice:] I can’t open my mouth. It hurts.

[Voice:] I feel it now. Something pressing against my chest.

[Voice:] Something screaming in my ears.

[Voice:] It keeps getting louder and louder.

[Voice:] I feel powerless and I don’t know how

[Voice:] I overdose on the good life thinking It will make me feel better.

[Voice:] The pleasure is temporary.

[Voice:] I know it’s gonna come back. It’s simply waiting for the perfect time to attack.

[Voice:] I hurt for years.

[Voice:] I’ve been crying for as long as I can remember.

[crying] I hate you.. I hate you..

[crying] I want to die

[crying] I want to die

[Voice:] Breathing has become an effort.

[Voice:] I want to forget, If that means leaving, then i want to leave.

[Voice:] I have been coping all this time,

[Voice:] but I’m exhausted.

[Voice:] I’m a ticking time bomb,

[Voice:] I can feel it coming.

[Voice:] I am done pretending everything is okay.

[Voice:] Save me or Kill me. Either one is fine

[Voice:] One may choose not to remember me

[Voice:] May not recall me gazing up the sky

[Voice:] When my foot steps will not be printed on this road,

[Voice:] I shall not be there to row my little boat across this pier